I Couldn't Love You
I talk about love frequently, but I realized I only talk about giving love.
I came to the true understanding of this when the people closest to me continued to tell me about my inability to receive love.
I thought about those comments day and night… While I’ve heard them before I constantly shrugged them off, because I give love, that’s enough isn’t it?
No it’s not.
I struggled to love and be kind to myself, so much so I subconsciously never felt worthy to receive it from others.
As I worked through this healing process, I found that a letter to myself is essential.
Though extremely tearful, gut wrenching, and difficult to write; I wanted to share it with everyone.
If you see yourself in this, replace my name with yours.
You have grown exponentially and have far exceeded the confinements of the mold you tried so desperately to avoid.
The things you heard and experienced were not your fault, and you deserved so much better.
You are so lovable, and you don’t need to change anything about yourself for a single soul.
One of my favorite things about you is that you smile, even in the most difficult times.
You are triumphant, unbreakable, and unstoppable.
You are safe to open your heart and believe the goodness of yourself.
You cannot spend the rest of your life in speculation of others intentions.
You do not have to do everything on your own just because you are capable.
You are rare and remarkable in all facets.
My favorite thing about you is your willingness and ability to change internally.
You are a woman of passion, with a strong belief in action.
Your desire to be a fantastic mother and exceptional wife is an accomplishment.
You are courageous.
You are beautiful, INSIDE and OUT.
You are hard to get, but a prize to be kept.
Your desire to help others is one of your greatest traits.
The credit for your healing and success is not due to anybody but YOU.
I love you exceedingly and abundantly more everyday.
Take the physical affection without fear and discomfort; You are worthy.
Take the compliments, because they are true; You are worthy.
Take the emotional guard down, receive the love that comes toward you. Also silence is your enemy; You are worthy.
Take the time back, you spent far to long not believing; You are worthy.
Take your power back, you are nothing like them, you are everything they said you weren’t; You are worthy.
Receive the Love, YOU ARE WORTHY.